Unfinished/unresolved thoughts

The Circumcision Argument
OK here goes. Over the pass year I have had a few clients choose to circumcise their baby boys. Both sets of parents were educated and well informed, and both seem to have made up their minds on the subject. I did not dissuade them in any way.
As a midwife I do not think that it is my place to pass out anti-everything-that-I-disagree-with-literature or raise an eye brow or show my disapproval unless it directly affect the pregnancy outcome and can result in my ass going to jail or losing my license. I do not feel the need, nor do I have a desire to fight every battle that crosses my path.
I want the families I serve to feel safe, to be supported in their choices.
I told another midwife this a few months back and was told that it was my job as a midwife to provide info to help keep babies safe, honestly you might think I had told her that I was no longer going to suture client who suffered lacerations, or that I had decided to circumcise these babies myself.



The Big Disappointment
The hardest part about being a midwife is not the difficult, or occasionally, disgruntled client. It’s not the worry and concerns that are encountered from time to time when a pregnancy is slipping outside the bounds of normal.
It’s not the second-guessing yourself during those difficult births nor the time or money spent educating and expanding your knowledge base. It’s not dealing with the powers that be or the heartache that comes from neither the occasional fetal demise nor the fear associated with the possibility of losing a baby, or the worst-case scenario.
For me the difficulty has come from other colleagues in my area, the midwives who, if you’re not in their click, insist on outing you. It’s the rumors and back talk that you hear through the grape vine that makes you heart ache wondering why other midwives want to be so mean. It’s the fear that when things go wrong and others in your profession gets wind of it they’re not likely to give you support nor compassion and would be more likely to take pleasure in giving you a few swift kicks in the chest when your down, simply adding to your pain.
Yes I have seen it here where I am. A midwife has a bad birth outcome, and when she’s most venerable her fellow colleagues aid in deepening the pain.
Ya that pain suffered at the hands of colleagues can sure as hell turn to anger, and bitterness!
OK I've taken my nightly dose of 100% Natural Vertebral fortifier, I'll go to bed now.